Editorial: Sometimes people need to see that you’re human too

There are times in our lives where we never know what someone needs to hear something. The ability to reassure and share stories or experiences can be the difference of making somebody feel better and providing them hope.

Over a month ago, I posted a message on my social media page about how I was feeling as I reflected on life. I believe now is the time to share this with how I was feeling at the time. (Note, this was before a lot of the pandemic came out). I am hoping that this will help others get a sense that we are all destined for something greater in our lives.

Warning, this is a long post, but I have a testimony:

As I drove home tonight in silence and empty roads, a strong epitome hit me like nothing I have ever felt before. I realized that my faith in God was stronger than it has ever been.

How do I know that? Could it be because of my past experiences? Could it be because of the current situation of the world today? Nope. It was none of them.

Tonight, I realized that I’m not afraid of dying anymore.

For those who don’t understand how big this was for me, there are nights where I can’t go to sleep, and I sit in complete darkness. I think about being an empty shell and that I was unworthy to go to Heaven. I thought about being complete emptiness in a cold place where nothing exists.

But tonight, on my drive home, I felt something different. I thought about my editorial that I wrote about what’s going on. But I thought how that in that, I wrote that if it was meant for me to die, then so be it. And then, the emptiness that has been missing in me was filled up.

I realize that I’m not perfect, but I realize that God loves me. I may have drifted away from the church, but I never drifted away from God. I felt a lot of warmth and I thought about past scriptures I have read and seen. I thought about small things such as having the faith of the mustard seeds to move mountains. I thought about my favorite Bible verse. Second Timothy, second chapter, fifteenth verse: Study to show yourself approved unto God; a workman needeth not be ashamed, rightly divided the word of truth.

While man has placed restrictions on the world, God hasn’t. We cannot serve both God and man. God has never forsaken me. He has promised me everlasting life. God has never broken his promises. Read the Bible and see for yourself.

We can believe all of these news feeds and information we receive about what’s going on in the world. But when four different authors in the Bible tell us about Jesus Christ, and several other references are made to him in the Bible, we have doubts? It’s time for beliefs to turn to a different direction.

I will not be bound by chains of man. The enemy can do whatever he pleases, but it will not stop me. He may try to restrict my movements. He may try to destroy the world and claim lives by deadly diseases. He may try to prey on the weaknesses of those who don’t know God. But I’m telling you that I know God and I am going to make sure that everybody I know can see the good he has done for me by living a better life.

I am not going to be perfect, but God is forgiving. The sin I create is my fault, but I know that I can only get better from here on out.
God, thank you for your endearing and everlasting love. I am no longer afraid of dying, as I know that it’s a transition into a better place. Thank you.

I love each of you. Keep God first and remember in times of trouble and turmoil, he’s there.

Thanks for reading. Stay safe.